Cuarentena Crazy 5/14/2020

It is so hard to complain when all is well. It is so sad to see the world grieving all kinds of losses, especially when you see those who are losing their parents, their children, their friends, co-workers, and the heroes on the front lines.  
Everything is frustrating. Sometimes we do not have to live something to feel its impact and be saddened for others. Compassion and empathy are both important to have and show others when moral support is all you can give during a challenging time like this.  
Every time my throat gets itchy, I panic for like 30 seconds.  
I take my vitamin C.  
I take a spoonful of homemade immunity booster.  
I pray and thank God we all have health at home and nothing, absolutely is missing.  
 
I am probably not the only one to panic when you think you’re symptomatic. My allergies keep me on my toes and wondering if It could even be possible to contract COVID 19 from my own home when I haven't been in contact with anyone! The struggle is so real.  
 
Right before we were quarantined, I remember thinking that officials should close the schools and places where too many people gather all at once to avoid the spread.Little did I even consider that the gym would close and that the quarantine would last the entire spring season.  
I am used to spending my spring afternoons scratching my eyes, taking allergy meds and watching my kids play their baseball or softball with their school teams and my weekends freezing my behind off in a mom lawn chair. I can complain about this and I feel so guilty because others are fighting for their lives, and here I am- spoiled rotten because I have lived a great life and continue to do so.  
BUT! 
 It’s my version. I get to miss seeing my kids on the fields. I get to miss the sun. I get to miss the rain. I get to miss being outside without feeling like I am inside, trapped inside a surgical unit. I want to breathe.  
YET! 
 I know this is not in vain. It just cannot be. Many people, like myself, have our theories. Regardless of what conspiracies at play, there is a lot to learn here. Let nothing be in vain. We would not be only survivors to tell a story, but we are survivors to change our own narratives. We are in control of the present more than ever.  
 
 
I think people are struggling the most with being in the present. We are so used to living in the past and stressing the future that the only time we pause to live in the present is when we are forced to slow down. Well, the universe is angry, and she is not afraid to show us!  
We have been mistreating ourselves this whole time. We have been feeding ourselves poison for breakfast, envy for lunch, and depression for dinner. This quarantine has not only taught me more about myself but also more about my limitations. I thought I would wait for a big break and someone would notice me or my work and ask me to share my story with the world. Ha! I am so naive to think I was that special. Like come on now. Hustlers hustle then they get noticed. DUH Lillian!  
Little did I know that I was the one who wanted to share my own story and other works the most so I saw an opportunity and began to finalize my first book and while it's rough around the edges, I submitted my manuscript and Voila! I fed my mind positivity for breakfast, energy for lunch, and love for dinner.  
This quarantine has also driven me crazy. I am mostly pumped up for work, the house, (I am such a chef on most days, but now- I am like Lillian Ray) and my own projects. However, I have my moments, my days, and nights when I just shut down. I think it is more than okay to do that. I have been programmed to keep it moving and it is my biggest challenge! You are not alone if this whole cuarentena is a challenge in and of itself. I mean, I know folks have been following challenges and trends for many years now, but this one- I wonder how the challenge lovers are liking this one now!  
Any who, I am now on a road of many new ventures, not only projects of my own, but I am moving differently. I have been reborn in a time of darkness. I have created my own light and as crazy as all this feels, I am going to redefine this level of crazy as inspiration.  
Be inspired. Share your work! Do the thing you have always wanted to do! It may not look like you thought it would, but you created that vision in your head so reimagine it, recreate it, and birth it! Do your thing!  
Spin the quarantine and make the best of it. The quarantine may have been caused by COVID 19, but the quarantine can result in something great. It is all up to YOU!!!  
Opportunities don’t come our way always so take advantage that the world has slowed down and listen to your inner intelligence. Learn something new. Be a better you. Or strengthen the you that you are already! But don’t just go crazy, do something inspirational. 

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