Post No Alcohol Challenge Reflection

It is ironic that the more you know and grow, the more you understand that you know nothing at all, or I should say not enough. I like to indulge in certain pleasures like coffee daily and wine to unwind. However, the more I become intrigued with the world of peace and harmony, the less I seem to want it, but the more I seem to need it. It seems like my body and mind have adapted to certain “pleasures” yet, it is never satisfying enough. Here’s an example, I drink coffee every morning because It has become habitual/routine-like. If I don’t have coffee, I feel like I am skipping something in my life. I may not even catch a headache, and it seems like emptiness waves over me by noon if I have not had my coffee. I need to drink water! I seriously need to drink more water. 
I once dropped coffee for six months, “cold turkey” and survived fine without it. I missed the aroma and first gulp feeling, but that’s it. So, the question becomes, do I need coffee, or am I just used to it? 
Here’s another twist. I stopped drinking alcohol during Lent. Even though I do not practice Catholicism, I like to take a little challenge during this time. Once Easter came around, I drank one nice juicy glass of sangria and the next day had a glass of chardonnay with my meal. Yet, my mood did not change, nor did my mental state become unaltered. 
On the fourth day after the no alcohol challenge, my son asked me,
“Mom, you can drink again. How do you feel about that?” 
To which I replied, “Honestly, I drink, but it does nothing; it feels the same way.” 
He added, “So what’s the point in drinking at all”? 
I was shocked. He is right. Our minds are wired to feel caged in when we feel prohibited, but in reality, things that are prohibited or restricted are because they are no good for you and all along are unnecessary. 
I’m on a mission (been on a mission for a healthier me, emotional, mentally, and spiritually), and I keep seeing posts that talk about spirituality and alcohol not aligning. This got me thinking. It seems like changes must come about to understand spirituality at its best and truly benefit from all the energy I continue to invest in being a better person every day.  My intention is not to relinquish all indulgences but to restrict them, so I can truly live a more fruitful life. 

First step: drink more water, I guess! 😜